I am UNchristian

First, tonights BBC group was sobering. I realized how I want to be used by God, but without exerting any effort whatsoever. This isn’t just something that happens occasionally…it happens quite frequently. I yearn to be used by God to do BIG things in peoples lives. To show them the genuine love that Christ would show. The problem is that it takes CHANGE. It takes a conscious decision to live the way you know is right. To go where God moves you. To obey what God is calling you to do. “Seizing a Divine Moment.” I resist, but I still want the glamour of feeling like I am holy enough to be used by God. It may be as simple as for praying for someone or giving a Bum a burrito. The feeling of purpose is indescribable when you walk in the path that God has set before you. We feel a part of something bigger than ourselves. The other part of the time, when we choose the opposite of the purposeful path, we feel like we have missed out or gotten something horribly wrong. We feel shamed. My shame came in the form of a burrito and a prayer. I realized how UNchristian i was when i chose to eat a burrito instead of doing as i felt God was calling me to do and give it away to a homeless man. I felt as insignificant as it seemed that I had missed by “Divine Moment” as Erwin McManus tells in his book Chasing daylight, to do as God was asking me to do. Instead I chose to eat a Burrito. The neglected prayer would have been simple, having my heart break enough for a person who will burn in hell forever and feel so alone in front of God that they can’t even speak or see, that i take time to lift them up in committed prayer. I missed it, in both situations. So many times we miss it. What would happen to the world if Christians didn’t miss it? What if we actually followed the path God desired, the “road less traveled?” What if we accepted petty differences and decided to become UNITED as a church of “little Christs” to infect our community with love? Our State? Our Country? Our World? What would happen to the horrible perception of Christianity if We hit it more than we missed it?

PS. I was lazy so i copied this from the BBC Blog, but i did write it originally...just on another BLOG.